you're mad

i've frustrated you
with my forlorn tone
my unclear answers
'cause i'm alone

but i don't care
overwhelmed with my thoughts
anxious and impatient
will you have kept your word?
will you still be the same?

when you go

i miss you when you leave
and i'm afraid you'll come back different
i miss you when you go
and i'm afraid when i'm alone

i'm anxious you won't keep your word
that you'll forget that promise made
you'll get lost in some cruel word they said
that makes you want to stay

lonesome

i'm sad when you're away
i want to make you feel that pain
but i know that's not the way
so i just sit around and wait

out vs in

There is a difference between people out there,
When I am in here; locked doors and cement walls between us
I am safe here
I don't have to worry here
I don't have to feel scared here
But people out there when I am out there,
They are not safe; they are screaming and leering,
Following and stalking,
They are running home instead of walking
They are fight or flight and fear of night
Those are who I'm scared of
I don't care about the others

just say it

i've told you how important it is for me to hear you say it
such a simple way to make me feel endlessly happy
so why won't you?
the longer that you don't, despite me explicitly asking you..
the more i think that it isn't what you want

cody

i just want to be with you forever and ever and ever
i want to figure out this whole life with you
you're my best friend forever
:)

i love you

i love you
i love you more than i ever thought possible
the thought of ever being without you breaks my heart
i want to be with you forever

all the silly little moments
the soft touches
the hello kisses and goodbye hugs
i miss you whenever you aren't here
i just really love you