Saturday, November 22, 2014

You can still change your mind.

In my deepest, darkest of hearts, I know I'm not over you.
You were everything I am looking for...
You just weren't looking for me back.

Fuck right off

I'm tired of your negativity
Shut the fuck up
You're annoying and rude

Thursday, November 20, 2014

before/after

nauseous
pained
fat
gross
disgusting
bulges
rolls
dough
protruding
lumpy
chunky
self-hate

fat
fat
fat

i wish they'd leave so i could get it all out

Monday, November 17, 2014

you're all liars

i don't trust anyone

you don't make friends with secrets (luckily i want to be alone)

i know i'm on a dangerous path
my thought process isn't healthy
nobody knows how bad it is.
and yet, it's comforting
it's mine. in a world where everyone thinks they know me,
i get a sick pleasure from hiding this;
a thrill when it progresses.
how far can i take this?
maybe i'll actually finish what i start for once.
maybe i'll actually reach a goal i've set for myself.