Thursday, December 19, 2013

blink back

deep breath
steady pace
blink back
blank face

can't breathe
pale skin
blink back
keep it in

shaking hands
shoulders tense
blink back
just pretend

tears form
lips quiver
blink back
i won't cry ever.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

"it's going to blow your mind"

it already blows my mind.
i just got the hugest wave of happiness wash over me, and it's all because of you.
it's on the tip of my tongue......

please don't go

you cry and beg and call to me
"livy, please don't leave
i screwed up once or twice, i know
but i love you, can't you see?

i loved you when i hit you
even when i called you names
i loved you with each bitch and whore
no dear, my loving never changed

and when you started sobbing
and i mocked your tear-tracked cheeks
please know i still adored you
when i damned you with my speech

when you tried to escape me
took your backpack and you ran
down in the snow, no where to go
know that i loved you even then

please don't go
i'm begging you
with all my fragile heart
i'll die without you near me
to tear and break apart."

despite your tears
your texts, your threats
i'm leaving, 'cause i must
for when you broke my broken heart
you also broke my trust.


Monday, December 16, 2013

i miss you

do not beg
do not break
if it ends here
i will keep a straight face
i can do this
i can
those words mean nothing to my pride
do not let him hurt you

Tuesday, December 3, 2013


am i just freaking out because i'm scared of how i feel?

is this another excuse to run away?


"Please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now"

christina perri 

Monday, December 2, 2013

anything to fix us.

if you want him, you can have him
i'll get used to nights alone
to sleepless nights and a silent phone
but i won't get over you

i'll be strong for both of us
and you won't see me cry
i'll smile for both of you
and keep my thoughts inside

please don't let my feelings for him
push you away too far
they've never been the focus
of this relationship of ours

for us, i will take a bullet
i'll let you break my heart
i won't let my worthless happiness
pull us two apart.