Sunday, March 27, 2011

trillium

tuesday fills my head
it drowns out all my thoughts
it berates me
it guilts me
it weighs me down
it inevitably comes.

Monday, March 21, 2011

now we're both clear.

i have proof and you have nothing
i found pride and you found pain
i saw you for who you were and you saw me for the very same

i see you for who you are now; a lying fiend, no heart to give
you see me for who i am now; the strongest girl to ever live

don't ever look at me again

you couldn't look at me
you couldn't meet my eyes
'cause you knew i finally saw you
all your worthlessness and lies

Saturday, March 19, 2011

hduff and me

waiting tables and female independance, i feel like hilary duff in cinderella story.

Next time, I'm going to say it.

Are you fucking serious? Everytime you see me, you're either trying to hook up with me or "laying down your wheels" for the weekend. You need to GET OVER YOURSELF. I don't like you, and I will never, ever let you touch me. You think you can come over here, talk to me for 2 minutes, and then I'll give you whatever you want? Do you seriously think you're worthy of ANY of my time? You are an STD-ridden douchebag, and I would SINCERELY appreciate if you stayed the fuck away from me. I used to like you too. I liked you for so long... because you used to be such a sweet guy. And then when you turned into a little shit, I still saw you as that nice guy. But these past few months have showed me that you aren't a nice guy who's made a few mistakes, you're an entitled twat playing nice. So, kindly fuck off.

Cyclical

Heartbroken.
Once again.
This shouldn't feel new to me,
But the cut is just as deep as ever.

Hope... that hope. That hope I harboured deep in my heart; hope that you felt the same. You killed my hope. You took it out back behind the shed and shot straight through the heart.

Stay away from me.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Christina Perri- Arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
You came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms me and I'm home

How many times will let you me change my mind and turn around?
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/christina_perri/arms.html ]
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let our love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go...

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let our love get so close...

You put your arms around me and I'm home...

You put your arms around me and I'm home...


Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Friday, March 4, 2011

a numbers game

march 3, 2003
3/3/3
333
The number 333 is supposed to symbolize the holy trinity; spirituality...
why does it feel more like 666?