i need to sort out my mind right now.
i feel ugly. disgusting. embaressed to see other people.
i feel stressed. stupid. i see everyone catching on while i struggle to catch up.
i feel like comprehension is impossible; that everything before this was a stroke of luck.
i feel my mind racing before i go out, incase i see him and have to relive it all.
i'm trying to keep my mind on lockdown.
i feel like i'm more self conscious these past two weeks than i've ever been in my life.
i feel tired, worn down. i feel sad.
i feel sick of my blood sugars. i feel like i'm letting myself down every time i go high, but i can't help it.
i don't know what to do.
i feel like at this point, i'm going to get complications sooner than later.
and i am absolutley terrified.
i just want it to stop.
i feel i am being drained of everything i once was proud of.
with each dosage, i feel more and more helpless.
i feel helpless