Pained

I woke up at 2am from a dream where I was begging for you. I woke up and begged for you a little more. I laid in the dark, alone, and thought of you with her. I thought of the words you said to me. I thought of the elation that you're touch gave me. I mourned for your security. I cried and cried and cried for everything I thought we were but never were. I can't handle the lies. I drive myself crazy trying to figure them out. I'm crazy.